27 August 2011

This past year...

I have tried writing a big long post to explain my last year, but I am finding it impossible. So many things happened and they are all so intertwined that it could easily be a novel and not a short blog post. So, I'll give you a list. I am sure in the future I will touch on a lot of things in this list, but for right now, it is all I have in me.

1. Death
2. Divorce
3. New Town
4. New Job

So, there it is. The list.

I've barely picked up a pencil since my grandfather died. Six months without a creative outpouring. I am putting this immense pressure on myself to create something different. My thoughts are- my life is different and this should be reflected in my work.

And that's were I stand.

I would love to open up a dialogue about any of this, so please feel free to ask questions, comment, or share about any similar experiences...

8 comments:

Blissful Pumpkin said...

Oh Stella, I'm so sorry to hear you've had such a bad year. I do hope you find some time to spill all of your emotions into a creative outlet. Your artwork is amazing, by the way. Don't think too much about it, just create and what will be will be.
I do hope the next 12 months makes up for the past 12.

Big hugs to you,
Kyles :D
P.s in every situation there is both good and bad to be taken from it. I hope you are able to see all the positive things that are a result of the previous 12 months events. :D

Sissy Sparrows said...

My dad's favourite saying is
"when one door closes another will open"...funny but it does always seem to work out that way.

I have missed your posts and seeing your amazing girls...they are always such inspiration to me.

Just take a deep breath.....

JosyArte said...

I love your work!...Sad that this bad time has taken your inspiration. this year haven't been too good for me neither in some aspects, like my relationship with my boyfriend of 9 years is falling apart and i don't know what to do and afect all my creative work. But, Like Sissy an Blissful said, we have to see de positive that is going to come!.

Sorry if i got grammar mistakes. XoXo from Venezuela. I hope your life change for good and i will continuing loving your work.

Matt at Wood and Faulk said...

I wish you luck on finding your new voice on the artistic front. Hang in there, and know some of us are thinking good thoughts and rooting for you.

stella latwinski said...

To be honest, I am doing quite well with everything. After my grandfather's death, I began to make a lot of changes in my life. A few decisions hurt some people very deeply and I regret that pain I caused in others. However, I am probably the happiest I have ever been in my life-I just wish it led to the creation of art...

Thank you so much for the support. I will break through this block soon. It helps that autumn is in the air {my favorite season}.

E.Mc said...

Hey there. Here's my list.

I'm homeless.
I left my job.
I'm applying for Social Security Disability.
I cannot get food stamps because I have no physical address.
I have a case worker.
I attend a mental health center five to six days per week.
My meds aren't working.

Yeah. We should definitely catch up. I'm actually doing well, though.

Erin Lang Norris said...

Wow. That's a lot. But I'm so glad you have returned! I really missed reading your blog.

Of course, I'm sorry to hear of all the bad things that have happened. Life changing events can become something you, over time, come to embrace. Of course, this is not to say that you forget about the terrible things that have come about. But I believe that it gives us a chance to grow, and it sounds like you are doing just that.

I was excited to read that you've been more in touch with nature. Nature is so good at healing the heart. What are your favorite outdoor activities?

I too have been the happiest I've ever been. It's the greatest feeling ever, isn't it?

Well anyway, I didn't mean to write a short story here. I look forward to your future blog posts! Take care. :)

Charis said...

Wow, that's a hell of a lot in one year! I think sometimes life throws everything at us to mould us in some way, I think the only thing to do is go with it. I hope the next 12 months are the start of a beautiful new chapter for you as you've obviously had the old one closed firmly for you.